  Not meaning physically tired,  although I am,  but I am emotionally tired. nbsp;  Tired of being there for people that treat me half assed. nbsp;  Tired of giving all I have for someone that is content on giving me the left overs. nbsp;  I am tired of being tired.  I just dont understand how you can put so much of your time,  effort and energy into something and it turns out a total disappointment. nbsp;
 Of course I am speaking of a relationship.
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 I have several ones going on in my life right now with the opposite sex,  that are all dysfunctional if you ask me but in the whole light of things they balance out.
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 I am tired of having to juggle the attention I get from one to make up for the lack thereof I receive from another.
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 I shouldnt have to do that.
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 I am a good woman and I know that,  guess that is where the problem is.
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 Because I wont settle for just anything,  I get bits and pieces of what I want from different people and I cling to that piece.
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 I am not used to putting my life out there,  but I just need to vent and since my friends dont seem to care enough about my issues to listen wholeheartedly without blurting in something of their own,
 I'll do this for today.  I just re- read that last line and my people arent that heartless but I just dont express myself verbally that well,  I guess because all of this would never come out in a conversation.
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 But back to me being tired.  I am so sick of being used.  Yup that is what it is,  I am being used by various people in my life.
 Relationships that I have are draining me emotionally and although I know this I am not getting rid of them.
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 Stupid huh.  But if I do that then I will be missing that piece that I loved some much.
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 Maybe things will look up for the better eventually. just gotta keep pressing right?  Sorry for the venting but it kinda helped.
