  I will not try anymore. I admit defeat...i kept fighting when all i really needed to do is give up. In the end i win because then maybe my insides will fix themselves. Just when things get better they get a whole lot worse. I must free my mind from this burden. I dont want it anymore. Its over now. I must keep reminding myself thats its over now.
I dont have to fight it anymore. I had to lose to win. I just hope twisting in my stomach subsides really soon. I do not know how long I can endure this pain for. Good riddens! So much pain for such little happiness. Not worth it.....women. My insides do feel better now. 
