  Lately everyday seems exactly the same. nbsp;  Kind of like how the guy in the movie Office Space feels. nbsp;
 He will go to work and do the same things everyday,  then head home and have the same routine.
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 My day's are a little different by the fact there is always some kind of drama going on and then&
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I will be expected to fix it.
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 I will gripe about it from time to time,  but if I sit down and think about how I would act if I didn't have anything going on,
 I would be bored out of my mind.
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 I honestly wish I could have a more relaxed life so that I would be a little more peaceful,  but then I believe I would get bored and then cause something to mess up.
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 LOL&
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 I never believed this until a couple of weeks ago,  I got home from work,  sat down on my couch ,  and began to think&
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about how&
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I had nothing to worry about at the moment and that this evening was going to be so relaxed,
 and an early one too!
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 As I sit there watching my favorite t. v.  show CSI Miami ( of which I haven't sat down and watched in a couple of months.  well I realize that my phone hasn't rang in a couple of hours.
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 I then&
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check to see if maybe it was turned off,  but it was still working.
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 As another hour passes by I start to pace around my apartment upset at nothing.
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 My friend Ryan calls and starts to talk to me and I get a little of an attitude for no reason what so ever and eventually end up hanging up on him. At first I was&
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angry w/ him and going around bad mouthing him until&
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 my friend&
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Micah asks me why.
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 I&
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sat there for a second and then eventually came to terms with the fact I had no reason to be upset with him.
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 I then&
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tried to sit back and list all of the people I've&
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been having my little problems with in my head and ask&
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myself why.
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 I realized after evaluating a few of my situations,  that it's been me all along for the most part!
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 Why do I do this?
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 I seem to cause a ton of commotion in my life then stress my self out,
 for no apparent reason.
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I will be&
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working on this&
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from here on out.
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 I also noticed that when a friend or family member&
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gives me a call and is&
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upset or in some kind of trouble,  I tend to make it my problem&
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until everything is&
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ok and they are feeling better.
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 I don't know,  I almost feel like I thrive on&
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drama.
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 &
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 I didn't have a stressful day at all today and my goal is to keep it this way.
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 No problems,  no anxiety,  no sadness,  no worries!
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 :  or :
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But the question I ask myself is,
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 Am I satisfied or am I feeling&
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as if &
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something is missing?  &
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