  Well today started with a positive outlook. I was going to join my girlfriend and her family on a day trip out to the coast. The weather was suppose to be great, and everyone was in a good mood. So we loaded up the car and took off at the ungodly hour of 8:30 in the morning. But it was alright cause I had brought a book, The Da Vinci Code , and I could of course just sleep some of the ride. Doing just that, reading & sleeping, we eventually got to the coast. And anyway, to make long day short we spent the day at the Newport Aquarium and some time on the actually beach. Then we headed on home. About halfway home I knew trouble was brewing. Now I thought the day had gone really well, but it seems I was wrong once more.
After we got back to my girlfriend's house and I got my stuff together to hop on the bus and head home, I knew something was wrong. I went to hug &amp; kiss my girlfriend goodbye for the day, and she just kind of gave me a quick little peck on the cheek. So a bit confused, seeing as I thought the day was great, I headed on home after asking her to call me later.
So then midnight rolls around, and the phone rings. It's her. I pick it up, we talk for a little while about how our evening have been and all. But I can still tell, but the tone and inflection of her voice, that someone was wrong. I ask her flat out, and she just tells me the generic "nothing". Well that clearly wasn't true, so I continue to try and find out what I did that day to upset her or what had gone wrong or just whatever . Turns out, surprise surprise, it was me. She was upset cause I had looked scruffy and my clothes looked bad when meeting her Aunt. Now I will tell you flat out, I don't care what "image" my clothing gives off because if you judge me on that alone then you either don't know me and therefor I don't care or you do know me and you're stupid.
Why should you be judging me on anything other then my personality? So anyway, we argued and fought for quite some time over various things from my T-Shirts being offensive to her to the fact that I don't know how to buy clothes that fit. Each insult feeling like a dig for dig sake, and not for pointing out something that needs to change. It makes me sad to say it, but I don't think my girlfriend and I have much longer left together.
All we do lately is fight, and neither of us can seem to make that stop. Whenever I think we had a good day together, I find out later I did something unknowingly to upset her. *sigh* I just really don't know how much longer I can do this. Things are going south fast, and I don't honestly expect us to be together when school starts. I still love her. I will always love her. ------------ Current Mood : Depressed Current Song : Hoobastank - What Happened To Us 
