  haiz. i juz heard * because you loved me* i'm feeling so down now. it reminded me of e ak camp.
i miss that camp a lot man esp e people. argh. and i did sth dumb. i went to talk to whale. i juz couldnt help it. it really hurts lor talking to him. i feel so so sad.
haiz.
n i'm scared i might cry again.
i cannot ever cry. whale seemed as per normal. mebe its juz me being sensitive to sunday? but i juz feel so depressed all of a sudden. its lyk after not talking to him for so long, i finally get e chance. yeah. but it brings back all e memories lor. those that i think i must have dreamed of. an illusion that i must have thought up of. he doesnt even seem to treat me as at least a part of his life.
argh.
confused*
