  Ok so it is 1am and I have to get up at 7am to get ready for my new job and I cannot sleep. nbsp;  I always get nervous like this before starting a new job and I did have something that would help me but umm that isn't avail unless I whore myself out.  tee hee. nbsp;  Well anyway I am really nervous about starting a job here in Michigan because I guess it truly means that my life in New Mexico is truly over or over for at least now. nbsp;
 I miss everyone of my friends in NM and I think I have been calling them way to much this weekend because of my damn unlimited&
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minutes so I call them and keep b* in about my break up ( its the continuous loop thing again LOL)  .  I know that they understand my need to talk even if it is about the same thing because right now I am still getting over it and plus I have barely started to live again so I know as of next weekend I will have way more interesting stuff to talk about or at least I hope&
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I know &
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 Well today I didn't get to do much because I was all depressed because of my talk with my ex last night(
yes I know I shouldn't talk to him but he was a major part of my life so it is hard not to want to get more closure on our relationship then I did which wasn't much at all)  so I stayed up real late talking with friends in person,  phone,  online so I ended up sleeping a little late but then I decided to make this bloc site thanks to my friend Tia and Vanessa (
love you both)  After make this site I went to a bbq at an old friends house and it was great I love her and her place I am also worried about a friend of mine i hope this friend realizes that they need help and i hope they get it.  Ok got sidetracked and since I don't really have any order to how I am putting entries into my blog site I will end this entry and come back sometime maybe even tomorrow.  Nite 
