  Amazing how so many lies can just keep building and building huh? My mother still has yet to call Diane about my fucking car, which means that I won't have it by Monday like she PROMISED.
I am so fucking tired of people breaking their promises. You should't fucking make them if you can't keep them. I mean, they KNOW I need this car to get to school, and to be able to get a job and such...I NEED it. But no...it's the same fucking bullshit. All they want to do is to do what they want to do. It doesn't matter to my mom and dad whether or not my brother and I have what we need...just as long as they get to have fun and do what they want to do.
When I have kids, I am going to make sure that they have everything they need, and that I am going to do my best not to fuck my kids up like my parents did me. I mean, give me a break. I am a 17 year old girl that sits at her house all the time, unable to go anywhere or do anything that other 17 years old get to do because she is stuck babysitting and her parents like to keep it that way. What the hell are they going to do when I go off the college? When I move out? I sure as hell am not coming back to babysit for them...fuck that.
I practically raise my brother, since I am the only one home enough to do anything with him. And then...there's something else that's been bothering me, but I didn't want to say it where Alyson could read, even though she wouldn't. My parents said that they think its time for her to move out of our house. I don't see why it should matter...they say it's because of financial stuff, but my dad has an opportunity with his music.
My mom said she was going to talk to her, but she has yet to do that too. I didn't want to say anything because I knew it would upset Alyson something horrible. They still don't understand...they think that now her and her mom are getting along that if she moves back in, things are going to be pink bunnies and rainbows...they don't know that Alyson's going to get worse again because of it.
I mean, we're kind of doing our own thing now, but...still. I love being able to come home from where ever I am and see Alyson sitting on the bed, waiting for me. And vice versa. Why do they want to take that from me? I have been so much happier since Alyson moved in with us, and she is like the only friend I have left.
She means the world to me, and I don't know what I would do if I couldn't be with her all the time like I have been. It's just not fair. But...neither one of them has said anything to her or me, so I guess that means the plans were put on hold. Good. I don't want them to say anything. ~Tell me all your fucking lies/ Cause I/will make you eat your words and die~ -Ill Nino 
