  Yesterday was probably one of the first times i sat down and had a devotion on my own. It felt really good for some reason, finally diving back into the book of life.
Diving into something that actually has a huge importance to me. So anyways i did a little study thing on finding myself, and discovering my spiritual gifts, and being patient in waiting to figure out what they are.
&nbsp; but anyways, the point is i think i am finally getting back on track. and i think for once in my "walk", i am not relying on a church or a youth group to get me&nbsp;to that level.&nbsp;i am relying on God to get me on fire not anything else, to be honest.. &nbsp; AND thats something that really frustrates me there mere fact that&nbsp;people put all of their hope in their churches, and putting their faith in a pastor more or less then a God.
Its sad to see a youth group fall apart or even a church fall apart, and then see everyone that was within it fall apart spiritually, and lose faith in what was the most important thing in the first place. &nbsp; I guess if you ask me, i think sometimes chruches can be brainwashing. They tend to tell you what you can and can not do, and they seem to judge you by the decisions you make.
so i have made the decisions to step out of youth group a couple weeks, and find who i am in Christ on my own. and take the time to pray and have devotions on my own. &nbsp; SO i leave you with that folks, i don't know if you are spiritual, by any means but if you are : break away from the church, for a small amount of time,&nbsp;and challenge yourself. thats it,&nbsp;challenge yourself. &nbsp; &nbsp; 
