  I know I'm depressed because I can't even stand to be on urlLink Fametracker right now. Everything over there is making me angry. I keep going back and forth. One minute I feel like crying, the next minute I want to break something. But I mainly feel sad. Maybe I'm PMSing. I've only been really depressed twice in my life.
The first time was when I was a senior in high school and my sister attempted suicide on two occasions. I just didn't know how to deal with it and at the time I wasn't close to my sister or my mother. So I started sleeping a lot, not eating much, and developed an ulcer. The second time was when I was in Chicago. Long story short I ended up in a nasty custody battle with my ex mother-in-law and her new husband over my daughter.
They had no standing for custody at all and didn't make any kind of accusations about me as a mother at all, so I won the case. Their whole basis for filing was they were concerned that I'm not Christian, don't go to church and wasn't sending my daughter to a Christian school. I'm serious. They thought they could win on that basis alone. It was thrown out of court, but not until I'd spent thousands, that's right thousands of dollars, on attorney's fee and lost a lot of sleep.
My mother told me later that whenever she talked to me I sounded like I was dead. And in some ways I think I was. The whole thing came out of nowhere and was quite a shock. Until I was served the papers, I had had a good relationship with those people. Now I hope they die in a slow painful death and the hands of a madman. 
