  Hey all. back again!  Confusion,  confusion,  confusion,  is all that is going through my head right now. not only in my own life,  but also concerning the rest of my family.  & nbsp;  As some of you already know,
 my aunt Amanda was diagnosed with cancer back in October,  and she went for checkup two days ago and it was found that her cervical cancer was gone but to the dismay of everyone,  the doctors found a spot on her liver.
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 So,  now she is back off to Kingston for three treatments of chemotherapy.
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 I guess we are all planning for the worst now,  but we all have to maintain a postive attitude for Zach and Connor.
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 Things are just messed right now. this sucks.
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 My own personal life is confused right now too. I really don't know what is going on.  I haven't spoken to my boyfriend in 6 days,  except for 10 minutes on Monday night. makes me start to think that something is up.  or maybe I'm just paranoid.  who knows.  . i dunno.  Can you see why I'm confused.
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 I need more nights like this past Saturday!
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 I have never had so much fun on a night out than that night!
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 We started at my friend Steph's house, who i also work with)  then we went to the Junction,  where I had the best time ever there,  hands down!
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 We danced,  drank,  and sat out on the patio and made some new friends!
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 It was by far the best time I had ever had there!
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 So after tonight,
 I have four days off work!
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 And I have no idea what I am going to do with all my time. I know i am going out with a couple friends on thursday night to go play pool. and again possibly on saturday. but everything is up in the air really. plans are probably going to be made tonight hopefully!
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 Anyway,  I am gonna head out now. I am sure I will write more later!  Love y'all!  Nat &
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