  see i wanna talk to megan and harrison about this crap but i just dont have the courage. i think maybe i'm afraid of gettin in some big even more depressing discussion and i'll end up losing them both. things are already tough as hell on megan. and harrison is just so happy that he gets to hug on megan and be with megan. i think back to that night when JT confronted me and megan said she couldn't be in a relationship. i remember saying something like " well i guess this means we cant hold hands anymore. but can i atleast still hug you?  and megans answer to that question was not no. but yes. i dont think we ever did hold hands after that.
infact i think we got even closer after that. sure megan i did want to continue becuz i was crazy about you but you didn't really put up a fight. well i was just IMed by harrison. i told about the blog. this post is the only thing standing in my way from something . not sure wut that something is though. meh. i can see it now. everything is gonna end. everybody is gonna hate me. sigh*  i dont want to type anymore. i'm just gonna publish this damn thing and get it over with.
