  all i really did today was read and take a bath. i had a lot of things i NEEDED to do, and i basically just layed around all day.
my focus was lacking and i feel like i have absolutely no direction. i'm absolutely dreading going to work the next 3 days. weekends are bad enough, then you add the fact that its tax free weekend AND friends and family weekend.. its like retail hell. i dont know why i get so stressed out about life. its like i KNOW how to live right and i can apply it for a little while.
then i just fall down. but ah. i'm just sad i guess. my sisters are going to college and moving out and i'm going to be here alone with my dying miserable parents asking me for moneyand screaming at me and with no friends. there is ZERO positivity in this place.. i'm really really afraid of the days to come. i don't want to be like this. i don't know what to do right now. i'll just keep praying for answers, i guess. 
