  So this blog thing is still not really catching on with me. I just can't motivate myself to do it. I'm starting to think that it is just impossible for me to really motivate myself to do anything, espeacially write, which sucks, because I want to write more.
When I was younger that is all I would do... Now I can hardly even manage to post one thing a day. Whateves. Gordon and I went over to Sam's last night and surprised him while he was in the bath. It was fun. We ate pizza and I got sick. Then Jessica and Jeremiah came over, man are they cute. I feel so alone when I'm with people, and I feel so crowded with my own thoughts when I'm alone.
I can't talk to anybody anymore, nobody really knows who I am anymore and I don't feel like I have made a genuine connection with someone in ages. The closest and coolest thing I have going for me right now is that a) Sam and I are becoming pretty good friends I think. I like the idea of him being my friend. My family causes such issues of love and hate with me. It is so much easier to be Sam's friend. I like the idea of being friends. b) I think I am becoming friends with Gordon. It's kind of hard tell right yet. He is awesome and I'd really like to be friends with him. Seth is sick today, so work is miserable. I think I want to go home. 
