  was in malacca the whole day till eight .  i ate so much i'm feeling so freaking guilty right now .  argument again today .  mebbe it was kinda my fault in a way .  i didn't try to look for trouble exactly .  but certain things she said just made me fire back .
 today's some eddy and cheng may thingy that she was sposed to help out .  when we were having problems and shit then she will promise every single thing .  and then slowly la .  she'll let it go then start taking advantage .  ARGH !  .
 i feel like tearing my hair out !  why can't i just get over her and let this all go .  i need to get a life .  for example :  last week or 2 weeks ago when our situation sucks more then our situation now .  she said -
 eddie ask me to help him for some cheng may surprise thing .  it's for awhile only .  i'll just help him light candles then i will leave .  but if your not okay with it then it's okay .  i wun go .  -
 sounds so nice right ?  .  obviously i couldn't be the bitch and say no .  after all there's no harm in that .  ooooohhhh .  then today .
 she said -  i'm going to stay there for about one hour liddat okay .  he's gonna buy alchohol and food so i'm going to stay there and chill for while .  i dun mind .  really .  not a single bit .
 i dun care as much anymore .  but i was kinda moody .  so i pointed out what she said the last time .  then she started getting pissed and said that was TWO weeks AGO LA .  with her that sorta irritated *  slang .
 then i told you JUST now already wert that i'm going to stay .  liddat also cannot meh ?  .  ARRGGHHHHH .  actually it's just like some stupid tiny problem la .  but it's just so annoying that she won't keep her stupid promises wan la .
 she'll just be "  good "  for that one week .  MAX -  2 weeks .  then she'll just be the same .
 RAWWWWRRR .  i hate this la .  I BET EVERY SINGLE PENNY i own that in ONE months time she'd start lying about calling ju nn .  two weeks later about going out WITH ju nn or whatever la .  it can be another girl now for all i care la .  then when shit happens she'll just say the same stupid things .
 grrrr .  or maybe she'd just go french some other girl in .  about .  k la .  TWO months time perhaps ?  .
 i feel like strangling something now .  >
