  I went on a walk today. First thing in the morning, I got up put one my little workout outfit and hightailed my little ( I should say my soon to be little) butt around my neighborhood.
I felt good. This is the second time this week. And I think the time is just invaluable. First of all I like the feeling of moving my body and being active. Its something that I have always loved anyway big or not. Racing Michael in the park, running bases with Tony chasing, Alanis around the house. I want to do those thing with no effort at all. I don't want to be out of breath walking up and down stairs I don't want to feel all stressed out when any kind of physical exertion comes up.
Two weeks ago, I went to the doctor and and when they weighed me, my jaw dropped. I am officially 221 lbs. Get the F*ck out of here. I almost jumped off the scale when I saw it I couldn't believe it. I have never been weight crazy, or a size junkie. I mean it I need a bigger or smaller size who cares I just get it and move along. But 221 lbs is ridiculous.
I could tell that thing were getting out of hand with me too. I just haven't felt right. My eating has definitely been out of control and the activity has slowed quite a bit since I'm not a waitress anymore. I don't spend 14 hour days on my feet busting wings all across a huge restaurant. I am the victim of the hated sedentary lifestyle... But a whole lot of things in the game bout to change. I am walking everyday. EVERYDAY!! I will get some kind of activity.
I mean I enjoy it. Even if it is just for the time alone and thinking quietly that gives me such energy and such a good attitude for the rest of the day. That alone is priceless. I will be responsible for what I place in my mouth everyday. Just eating to be eating will no longer be my standard operating procedure. I will eat fruits and vegetables and lean meats. I will stop eating so much damn fast food. Every taco counts.
I will not deprive myself of the foods that I enjoy that will only push me to give up too quickly. AND Lastly but not least,cause honestly it is the most important thing for me to learn in all aspects of my life. I WILL NOT JUST TALK ABOUT IT, I WILL BE ABOUT IT!!! In the immortal words of Michael, Don't tell me what you are going to do tell me what you did. So no more talk baby its all action from here on out. I am dedicated and prepared and I will be encouraged to complete the task ahead of me. ~Senam 
