  haiz.  yesterday i told him tt i like another guy.  he today so frustrated le.  wanna beat up tt guy if he provoke him in either way.  but i am nt his stead y he reacted so strongly.  i already told him tt he gt no chance le.
 n i treat him as my kor.  is he dun want to give up lor.  tis things have already make mi very frustrated liao le.  but y he dun understand lei.  gt so many girls like him he dun want pian pian want mi.  y?
 they r also nice girls ma.  i'm the same as them.  maybe he dun understand y i like tt guy nt him.  he angry.  but i still dun understand.  i treat him nice he like dun appreciate lei.
 so sad.  is like i'm close to him but i like another guy.  it's tt my fault.  i dun understand but hu can tell mi tt.  cos i treat him as my kor of cos i'm close to him wat.  all started wif mi liao lor.
 all my fault liao.  no matter wat it's all my fault.  i shouldn't let him have a chance in the first place.  i should have juz rejected him in the first place.  but i haev made the wrong choice.  so stupid of mi.
 now end up like tis.  how am i goin to clear tis mess now.  juz how?  y my luv life always like tt de.  nv have a happy endin.  i feel like juz slackin at home n dun do anything better than to go sch n face all tis unhappy things.
 n can't study well.
