  Not much around here to say that things change. I got a phone call today from the guy who used to call himself my friend. I wonder if he thinks I am stupid? I know he hates me... But I can't make the world love me. So I feel like I should jump back on a plane and wonder around for a bit. I wish I could. I wish I had the money and the belief in myself...
But we will see. God has strange ways to let me know I will be ok. I promise here today that I will try not to hurt anymore people. I will, of course, try to be better! I have hope that someday I willhave my own children. I love babies. I think I need alittle rest, don't ya think? X Baby Kiss 
