  I like to think of myself as a pretty mature guy. But sometimes, I turn into a 13-year-old girl (b-cup and everything). Like this... Sometimes I gossip like nobody's business. And sometimes I get all riled up about stuff that really doesn't matter at all and that I ultimately can't do anything about.
The worst is when I realize that I've done both things at once. I don't have any strict moral code against gossiping or anything; I just hate that it usually hurts someone and more-frequently-than-not it comes back and bites me in the ass. My ass hurts from all the biting. I heard some bad things about the Mansion through the grapevine and I told my new boss about them. Looooooord, that came back. The person I heard the bad things from had heard them from someone else whose friend had worked at the Mansion. Then I told my boss, who called her previous employee who asked his friend if he'd told anybody. Then the friend called the person I heard it from and soon enough I hear all about it! I'm not mad at all, because it's not like anybody did anything wrong except the guy who used to work at the Mansion who told his friends a bunch of lies that eventually got back to the owner.
But I kind of screwed my friend by passing on information that he had been told in confidence. If I'd just kept my big mouth shut, nothing would have happened. But whatever, bygones. Today I got to work and Abbadon had emailed me asking why I didn't hire someone at the store they had applied at and why I sent the applicant to another one of our locations to interview... She was all mad and aggressive.
So I - of course - got all angry because she is just a bitch. It's innate. It's like her hair is brown, her eyes are brown, her personality is bitch. Some things just ARE. Anyways, in her email she wasn't just nicely asking me a question. She was accusing me of making a bad decision. And she's one of those super-bitch-power-bitch's who will never back down or admit that she's wrong. Funny, she's single. Whoda thunk it? So I faught back against her with a "Here's my reasoning, so suck it" email and another "Well, tell me if one of your stores is in such dire straits and I will be better suited to make decisions" email. Then I talked to Michael and he told me I should just drop it because I'll never change her. She's always going to be a bitch.
Except Michael doesn't really think she's a bitch. Just I do. See what I mean? I get all riled up about nothing and then I gossip about it and do petty shit to make myself feel better. Really? How much better does it make me feel to send off aggressive emails to Abbadon? No better at all. Just making the situation more dramatic. It's because I hate her and I never want her to feel like she can step all over me without me realizing it and telling her to get the fuck off me.
But ultimately she just ignores me. So what good does it do? I'm all about supporting the underdog, but when there is no chance of winning? AND WHAT DO I WIN REALLY? Does a house land on her or something? Jesus Christ I'd love to see those shoes shrivle up. 
