  What is it that is being referred to? What is this "it" that I should feel, when I feel like it? To do it well, to get it going, to be in it; to SEE it. Have I seen it? Has it happened already, did I miss it?
It may sound strange, but sometimes I think I feel it; like it's all around me. It can be so heavy one day, but it can be so easy the next. Maybe I've become obsessed with it; I do think about it all the time. I wonder if it is my problem or my solution, picking it apart, piece by piece, hoping it will all be OK. Truly, I long to know what "it" is, what it is that is being referred to? 
