  A long time ago it suddenly occurred to me. Sometimes you just try too hard to do things right. This world is not perfect, and neither are we. My father always used to say: "Something worth doing is worth doing well". He expected others to be just the same. Needless to say he was disappointed a lot of times.
It's the same with me sometimes. I just ask a lot of people, want it to be perfect. And I expect them to be as motivated and enthousiastic about it as I am... This drive sometimes leaves very little room for other opinions. That is hard enough when you are around me, but even worse when a few thousand miles away! Fortunately I am able to control this now, well... most of the time anyway ;-) Why am i telling this?
It has a lot to do with online relationships. You can share only a limited part of your life with someone else when online. You can't just go through your whole day, all the things you need to do, all the priorities, the daily work and routines. It would probably take as long as the day itself... So you tend to expect others to be as flexible and available as you are. I regret to say that I have been doing that as well the last few months with Lisa.
Of course with all the best intentions, but it is just not right. You just sometimes have high expectations, without even being able to grasp how difficult that could be at the other end. Example. We have 9 hours difference. So when she comes online, she gets a coffe, reads her offlines, her mail and starts to wake up. Fortunately we both are not real morning persons.
But by the time she wakes up, I have had a full working day behind me and expect her to talk to me about things i have been thinking about, issues i want to discuss with her... Wow.. Can you imagine that before your first cup of coffee? Just recently i started to get up very early to be able to share her evening. Well that's a change for me! I need at least half an hour - 45 mins to really wake up, and she gives me all the time for it, patiently waiting for me to get up to speed. She's better at it than I am i must confess. Another example.
We do a Q&A through mail to ask each other some real important questions and get to know each other better. These questons sometimes take some time to think about. And then I have not even discussed the power failures she has been having that cause all your writing to vanish before your eyes! Well, there he goes again.. "Did you get my mail? Did you read it? Answer it?
I did not get your reply yet..." Man, i can be a real pain. Writing about it helps I suppose. At least I know that I do it, that's step number one. Just another lesson learned. One of my favorite quotes: "Did it ever occur to you that your purpose of living is to serve as a warning to others? " Now I did not write this post to stress that fact - I am here for another purpose I am sure.
Yes, I have a strong drive in anything I do. Aries do tend to have that. It's just sometimes not very easy for the people I care about. If you read this love, have a coffee, a siggy, hell, have 2 coffees. Wake up. Tell me to bugger off when you are waking up ;-).
I will remember my own words.... Teach me a lil patience. Love you!! Theo 
