  It feels like i have been asleep for years. I haven't, I know, have lived intensly, but dealing with mortgages, houses, so many decisions to make, it all feels like you suddenly woke up. And that's a good thing too. I just had a talk at my bank. They thought i was still selfemployed. So they must have lost track of me about 7 years ago. This kinda triggered the feeling. I suddenly remembered that movie "Awakenings". It just feels like a fresh new start, a good feeling actually. I am really starting to enjoy it now.
Not that i did not before, but i had a hard time allowing myself to feel good. But the good feelings are realy taking over now. Enjoying it! oh.. lol just a note to go with that.. Have been on Red Bull and coffee most of yesterday after a night working and just 2 hours of sleep the whole day. now that must have had it's influence too.. Feel like ran over by a truck after sleeping for at least about 12 hours... 
