  Hey, kids. I have less than one month remaining before I retire! I mean graduate! Man, time flies way too fast... Thursday I have my third essay due, then all that's left is to do my final portfolio for my non-fiction class, the final draft of my Senior Paper and the presentation for my senior paper!
Then it will be graduation... then Christmas... then New Years then I will try to vacation before surgery. ANYONE WANT TO GIVE ME GRADUATION PRESENTS? :) I got in touch with a friend last week and am having lunch tomorrow... but I saw her today at the bus stop and leaned against the glass right in front of her, because I'm a funny guy. It feels good to know somebody from school. Like, I've been there five years (I know, I know...) and I haven't made any friends. Granted, I've kind of been afraid of people most of those years, but lately I've had NO EXCUSE! Actually I have plenty of excuse, since you know, I've been hanging out with a girl after class every single day, adore her immensely but I'm never going to be able to tell her this.
Why? Because I'm a great big loser. Everyone tells me the same thing: "Derr, ask her out! " HA! This is the Bean. That is not in my vocabulary. I respect people too much to ask them out :p I'm pretty sure she won't see this though, thankfully. It would take a lot of work on her part to find it... so if she finds it, it means she's interested, and in that case, I'm glad.
:) And if I happen to show her AlphaBean.net in the future, it will mean I grew balls and etc... I'm rambling. My mind has been mush the last few whatevers. I have way too much shit going on in my head, while just a few short years ago it was like... "Wake up... shower... school... sleep. " WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GOOD OLD DAYS? 
