  I did not get to talk to Jon tonight and I was a little disappointed. I don't like not being able to talk to him but I guess that really isn't that bad of a thing. It's only Monday and already I am wishing it was Friday. I'm not sure what we are going to do with weekend. I want to go to Cedar Point but I don't want to just say it. That costs money and we all know how Jon hates to spend money.
I probably just won't say anything and we won't go. That is something I tend to do quiet often. I want to go so bad though. Cedar Point is so much fun. It would be great to go now because won't be busy at all. What is wrong with me though?
Why can't I just say, Jon how about we go to Cedar Point on Saturday? AHHH!!! I frustrate myself. I'm such a non-confrontational person it makes me sick sometimes. Why do I do this to myself? I let people walk all over me and then I feel bad.
I do all of this to myself. Maybe a day will come when I'm able to say what I am really thinking. You'd think I would be able to considering we have been together for 3 years. Maybe I will soon since 3 years will be turning into forever. Forever is a long time to walk around thinking and not speaking. This is something that I need to work on. 
