  I was talking to a friend of mine yesterday, and we had a really interesting conversation. He was telling me about this prayer that he's been praying lately... to ask God to give all the young adults everything they ever wanted... monetary success, relationships, the lifestyle that they want... everything... but in ONE aspect... where God is supposed to be; one BIG FAT ZERO .
So I asked him, what were other people's responses to his prayer? He said, someone told him... "hey, what kind of prayer is that!? " Hmm.. what kind indeed... it really gave me something to think about, because in reality, i know a lot of young adults (especially in the church... myself included!
) are seeking for something more in life.. it's like we're never contented... always looking for something more.. more fun, more money, etc.. And yet, there is an undeniable cry from within our hearts for something more meaningful. Something that looks like a God-shaped hole. I woke up this morning thinking about this, and telling God, " I don't ever want to have an empty bank account with you! " (spiritually, i mean, duh! :) It has been my heart's cry to ask God to fill it... fill it with His presence.
And yet, a lot of times, it just seems to elude me. Is this a route that God wants me to take? To just trust . Not to rely on my feelings. I have this disatisfaction within me, and part of me thinks it's somekind of holy disatisfaction... to always want to have more of God. That's good, isn't it? But I can't say that I've never experienced God's presence in my life.
Many times, He has reassured me by just a gentle nudge in my spirit, about an issue in my life... or something that I should be doing. Or just spoken to me thru His Word. Could it be then, that my listening channel has somehow been corrupted? By something in my life that is blocking my sensitivity to Him... Or is it just the fact that I've stopped listening?
All I know is that I never want to stop seeking Him. And i don't want a big fat zero where God is. 
