  so i think i'm gonna be up all night.  was trying not to post to the site for a few days cuz i didn't want to look like a loser that has nothing else to do except update her blogger. then i realized that at this point andrew is the only one who reads it so he already knows i'm a loser.
 i've just been playing this game called collapse,  i'm so addicted to it.  it gets faster and faster and i have problems with my eyes focusing on fast moving things ( which sucks so hard,  you have no idea)  so i just run the mouse all over the screen clicking hoping that i will hit on the right things and usaually i do,  tonight i got my highest score/  so i'm listening to this song by maria mena and there's this line that says:
 " i guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down,  just to keep you around cuz the day that you realize how amazing you are you're gonna leave me"  it think it's supposed to be an upbeat song ( part of the chorus is:  " you're the only one who holds my hair back when i'm drunk and get sick,  and you're the only one who knows exactly what i mean.  etc)  but that one line kind of mars it for me and i see it as kind of a tragic song.
 depressing really.  maybe i just seem to be in a fucked up mood every time i hear it and that is why i have associated it with pain. who knows.  bad vibes though,  for real.  i've also been going thru my profile and clicking on the things i really love to see who will come up as sharing that same interest and then posting to their sites.  people are so interesting.  and i don't mean that in any kind of negative way,  i just mean that it was kind of fascinating to find out information about complete strangers.
 it was fun and informative.  i think i did that in the hopes that people would do the same for my site or something. i don't know.  anway,  should probably get some sleep,  i have a whole day planned for movie watching tomorrow and i need to rest up.  after i watch kill bill vol 2 i won't sleep for days for fear that i will wake up and be buried alive ( seriously,  the most frightening scene in a movie.  ever.
