  i had some sleep problems last night.  i keep tossing and turning for no obvious reasons.  i slept well for the first five hours,  but then i woke up ( i set my alarm clock to wake up at five to do some work work,  but my internal clock woke up like 5 minutes before it rang)
 and couldn't really go back to sleep.  neither could i actually wake up.  keep tellin myself like 5 more minutes.  damn it.  the weird thing was that in that awake/ sleep mode,
 my mind was racing through some really weird stuff.  sometimes i think i'm going crazy.  odd things just come and go in my head.  sometimes guilt for not waking up to do some work,  sometimes anger for waking up to do some work.  it was extremely tormenting and i couldn't really get a full 5 minutes of sleep.
 and so i keep delaying.  5 o'clock,  5: 30,  6 o'clock,  6:
30.  finally,  i could get soooome sleep.  but the sleep was much more dreading then my half- sleep encounter.  within 5 to 10 minutes,
 i entered REM sleep and dreamt.  for a full 30 minutes,  the dream turned into a terrifying nightmare that woke me up in despair.  but.  i will have to tell you about the nightmare in my next post.  i'm a tad bit late for work.
 : P 
