  . huhhuh. i did not know i was such a dirty bastard. shit. i am a very sensitive gothic. damn.
too bad for me. i was unlucky since the day i was fucking born. all i have in this life are my friends. and they turned out to be like this. shit. huhhuh.
better stop getting emotional. huhhuh. my friend said i called her a bitch,  and that she is used to my fowl mouth. wow. some fuck all friend i am(
 AND DONT MISUNDERSTAND THIS,  I AM CALLING MYSELF A FUCK ALL FRIEND NOT YOU !  huhhuh. nowonder god is punishing me this way. that my friends misunderstand me and i misunderstand them. but hey.
i am a gothic,  no sympathy,  no regrets. huhhuh. keep cool. huhhuh.
fuck. i really hate my fucking life. full of misery. that one day i got to this gothic thing and its wonderfull. huhhuh. to all my friends out there,
 especially you [ manraj,  zarul,  ganesan,  and the only female close friend whos very special,  zaimah]
you all are all very special to me. the most of all would definitely be SH* R* his name would be semi undisclosed for a few personal reasons. fuck i feel like i am more pathetic than fauwas.  i bet zaimah will be laughing real loud.
huhhuh. then she'll say. but then,  do i care?  NO! huhhuh.
it isnt her fault anyway. i am a bad friend,  a very bad friend. and i am on my fucking way to HELL soon. huhhuh. life is fuct.
so.  see you in HELL!
