  It's a slack Thursday at work and i've spent most of my time placing some add ons in here. I've been wanting to create my own site for ages and at least now although i still dont know how to make myself one, i'm trying to familiarize my so so mind on how the html codes work.
It's still a whole lot of work and my eyes are starting to bulge and shut lolz. It's not that i want people to see this stuff coz it's really a very personal thing for me but i just want to have something that will always remind me of things, people and emotions that overwhelmed me in the past and still have this great effect on me. I had a short talk with Paul hours ago, he's busy writing another masterpiece for the Who's Who in Poetry and i just feel so so proud and happy for my man. It's gonna be one amazing and valuable gift for his mom. I didn't remind him about the pics nor the cam he promised coz i know he still have more important things to attend to. Anyway, i'm sure he's still as gorgeous as always. I was again inches above the ground when he told me he's really serious about me and that's a fact and that he believes in me 110%...and even more oh geeze.... do i have to say more.
I'm giving him the time he needs and like in 2 weeks time he said we can start planning. Whatever. I'm not pressuring him coz i know that wont do us any good. What difference will it make? None. So i just have to understand and support him the only way i can for now... and that is by giving him time. He knows i'm just here and whatever mood i may get into, whether i'll start being impatient and rambling my pain out again tomorrow, only one thing is certain.
I love him. Period. There are still a lot of things i want to do. Mostly for my family and my big dream of doing charity works someday. But if I were given a chance to make just one wish right now, it would be to open my eyes and find my Paul next to me. 
