  So.  work,  um,  I don't even know what I did all day.  I worked all day,  can't recall much of it this late in the day,
 so I suppose it wasn't ground breaking.  After work today,  I went with a co- worker,  Petra,  to Best Buy to pick up a new PC tower with her (
for her)  She had an ancient PC that was in a store somewhere and had been reconditioned.  It was so not working.  I tried to mess around with it the other night,  but I couldn't get it to recognize the modem anymore.  She recently won a lawsuit of sorts and had a little extra cash,
 so I suggested she get a basic model from somewhere -  so,  off to Best Buy for a $ 449 eMachine with tax and a $ 50 rebate.  Not a bad deal.
 Good memory and all,  a DVD/ CD- RW,  plus Win XP and new periphials.  it's amazing how cheap technology is now adays.
 I purchased a PC with half the computing power and wizardry for 3 to 4 times as much!  I did pick up a CD player for the car,  kind of a discount brand -  not sure if I like it,  but what do you expect for $ 30.
 Sigh -  -  I'm getting old.  Speaking of which,  the big bad b- day is lurking around the corner.
 :  I will now be officially over a quarter of a century old.  I know it's totally hokey to be concerned about my age,  and yet,  I had hopes to have gotten somewhere further in my life by now,  or at least be well on my way to my goals before I get middle aged and fat and wrinkly.
 Before I know it,  I will be in my 30's .  my life half over.  SO depressing that we spend so much time trying to get ahead in our youth instead of enjoying it while our bodies are able.  Cat's are good,  of course.
 They are wrestling about and making a mess.  Colleen got back to me with a rough draft of a logo for the CafePress store -  looks very promising.  Made the mistake of emailing my mom today attempting to explain how her negative remarks are offensive and well,  she did her thing,  and somehow misinterpreted and turned the whole thing into me supposedly having a guilt trip for not talking to her.
 ?  How?  I don't know.  Love life isn't improving.  Men are stupid.  R won't come to his senses,
 so I guess I will be working on getting over him as unreal as that feels and seems to me.  It really sucks,  all the nice part of falling in love and thinking that you've found a real companion and person you can count on,  and then you find out you were mistaken in one way or another -  circumstances.  Makes one feel lonelier I think,
 as if you were trying to acecpt being alone and accept your life and then you meet a companion and become so accustomed to them that they factor into your every day plans and future dreams,  then poof -  you are alone again and thinking of what they are doing without you and feeling unloved and abandoned and frankly,  miserable.  The older ex,  G,
 is still lost in his own personal mental battle and inner demons and barely capably of coping with his situation.  I begin to wonder if he'll ever be ok.  I think he has many years ahead of him of recovery.  So,  no happy get together there.  It's hard to care about someone in one way,
 and yet harbor resentment,  anger,  and borderline hatred simultaneously.  My good days are the ones I can forget he is even around and not think of the past.  I don't understand so many things about how he sees life and how he deals with things.  Good night all :
