  I've realized my life completely revolves around going out now. I've been out of my home for so long that I feel so lost and purposeless without going out. My heart jumps every time someone asks me to go somewhere (unless it's an idiot who I don't want to go somewhere with - you know who you are!). I need to borify my life again. Make it completely dull so that I think that the most dull things are really exciting. I disgust myself. 
