  Post By: lunchbox benny Sat 07/10 02:16 well, things slowed down, but i haven't acomplished much. i owe alot of friends money, it bums me out, when friends have "some reason" to not hang.
anyway the benny ford clinic is meeting this sunday. hopefully practice starts soon. i only worked tonight, no cash, the road is bumpy, and not in a good way. so yeah i'll have a full time job if not two by next week. it's bust ass time, one good thing about taking 7 months off as a band, you can look at what you've done with clear eyes. i'm proud of everything. from Prom Songs on, i've always tried to put my balls on the table, in ways no one else would, that's a rule of great art i think... the message that was set on the table, the small scar it made. i love it all, the songs, the band, the time. it was all wonderful. but then came the chicken hawks, and grabbed my soul, everything has been easier since then, prom songs, things seemed to always be moving further away, as were full blown rose, the benny ford clinic, they have always been about moving closer.
and it flows easier. it makes more sense, the voices tell you where to go. i'm not in present mind frames, i'm focussing on reading the map, making sure there's enough fuel to make the trip. and realizing what it is i have to do to make it happen. push the button, make it happen. push the button, make it happen. teeters huh, well i'm made of strong stuff. like exspensive burbon. to the table. "Each one of us, in his timidity, has a limit beyond which he is outraged. It is inevitable that he who by concentrated application has extended this limit for himself, should arouse the resentment of those who have accepted conventions which, since accepted by all, require no initiative of application.
And this resentment generally takes the form of meaningless laughter or of criticism, if not persecution. But this apparent violation is preferable to the monstrous habits condoned by etiquette and estheticism. " Man Ray,Paris 1934 "when the going gets weird... the weird turn pro" -dr. hunter s. thompson, L-U-V you best believe.
benny 
