  Post By: lunchbox benny Thu 04/15 04:10 well lack of drugs, made me crazy enough to email a certain rhythm guitar player i've always wanted to work with, though he'll prolly never reply, it was worth a shot. i get everything i want (eventually) so i figured fuck it and tried. i saw the series finale of roseanne it kinda choked me up. turns out the last season (winning the lottory ect) was all roseanne writting in her basement writter's office, dan had died of a heart attack a year ago. and the last season was all in her head. kinda perfect way for her to end the show. well we got my taxes filed for real today, and the tastee beef is tomorrow at 2, we got side tracked getting taxes done. when i get my refund me and ann are going to olive garden on me. and maybe it's best taxes got delayed, now i have to find a job which means, maybe i won't use my taxes on debts and save it for studio.
matt markell is writeing me a letter of recomindation, so i kinda feal honnored, not too many people he would do that for. i'm gonna pawn some cd's in the morning for cigg money, and do some applications after that, tastee at 2, work at 5. and hopefully i find some drugs in there somewhere. i've been going back to things i like in my teens. like roseanne and paula abdul. the thing that makes a fan is createing this cool world they never dreamt of, and make them think that's the world i wanna visit.
jeff seems to be cool with the benny ford clinic, but his next few emails will tell me clearly. i see myself winning the lottery this year. if i do i think i'd try to keep it secret. but it will be 180 million jackpot if it happens. i think after 10 years of wishing to win, i could handle it now. anyway i'll be here tomorrow. "Each one of us, in his timidity, has a limit beyond which he is outraged.
It is inevitable that he who by concentrated application has extended this limit for himself, should arouse the resentment of those who have accepted conventions which, since accepted by all, require no initiative of application. And this resentment generally takes the form of meaningless laughter or of criticism, if not persecution. But this apparent violation is preferable to the monstrous habits condoned by etiquette and estheticism. " Man Ray,Paris 1934 I Give Drugs A Bad Name, L-U-V you best believe.
benny 
