  I'm feeling a little out of it and melancholy nite. I love to rekindle a connection we used to share, to get to know you abit better but on a different level.
Having you as a friend would be nice. Our encounter has happened for a reason. I refused to let it distinguishes. I enjoyed what we had before and still feeling a connection now. I tried too hard. This was what you used to tell me.
I really value the possibility of rekindling some of the times we had. But the prospect of that makes me both sad and scared to try. The best thing i can do is just plunge in as i normally do and see what happens. I understand reintroduction will be difficult but i'm going to give it a shot. I feel like I look a weiner approaching things in such a manner. I still feel that connection but do not know what to do about it.
Somehow, that step will happens if destined. I feel like its something i need to do. I hope i can do it and not make a fool of myself. I guess time will tell. I'm keeping my fingers crossed, hoping for a miracle to bring things right once more. You were right about I couldnt stand silence. Other than silence, i couldnt stand unsettled and unresolved issue. Somehow, i know you wouldnt want any communication at this very moment. I couldnt figure out the reason. Those guy friends were telling me it's always the men's thing for not wanting any possible track of a past relationship to remember.
Perhaps. I tried to understand. I couldnt see it. I'm sorry. I've never once believe in miracle but ironically i'm desperately hoping for one, now. I like how we can be friends. I like the fact we're laughing and be happy about everything. It's nice. A miracle. I want it. Everything was a dream when i had you. 
