  7/13/2001 6:54 AM PDT Party at Ray's tonight. Julie's leaving me for over a week. As much as I hate to admit it, even though I don't actually want to be with him now, and couldn't even start to deal with that thought, I'm missing the ex... missing just hearing from him every once in a while. Won't call though. That wouldn't be good. Stay strong. As for the other ex, hearing from him too much, and satisfied that it's still bothering me that he wants to hang with me. When I start thinking it's ok, that's a problem. When I come in here and say *Paul and I had so much fun last night* that can't be a good thing, take me in to get psychoanalysis.
I really need to remember my diaryland password so I don't have to spill all this for the general public, who I'm sure don't give a flying fuck. I took " urlLink The Gay Test " at urlLink theSpark.com - turns out I'm 44% gay. Females taking the test average 32% I guess. Hmm... 
