  Called my mom a little while ago... she just bought a mini-dv camcorder and wanted me to tell her if it was okay or not. I looked it up and it was fine, but then we started talking about marriages and all... she wondered who out of us kids would get married first. I told her how I don't think any of us will be getting married any time soon. Then she had to go on and say, "Maybe I'll get married first. " "Mom, I don't want to talk about that right now. " "Okay, okay... You know, Steven will be getting out soon. " "That's... that's great mom. Uh... when? " "Well, he'll probably have a date set in October for a hearing, and then probably 6 months from then..." "Uh, okay. " "Will you go to my wedding if we get married? " "Mom, I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. " "Okay. " Ugh! I'll deal with that when the moment comes, but the thought just gave me a sick feeling in my stomach.
And to imagine him as my step-father? HELL NO. I've thought about the possibility of them getting married, but I don't think I could ever attend. It's just too much. Then, what if one of us gets married eventually? How is that going to work out? I wouldn't want him and my wedding. *SHUDDER* I cannot think about this right now, it's disturbing. My stomach feels funny. 
