  write when I'm feeling something? Who am I kidding? I feel something every minute of every day but it's always different. today I was happy. Daniel & I had some great emails and I almost called him but it's not time.
It's too soon, I still love him so much... I talked to MaLynda today and she was great, she gave me some help and even though I think sometimes I could never benefit from someone else's experience, for God's sake, she has been through the exact same thing. Can you believe it???? I am NOT alone. So I may meet her this weekend, to see how she is and see her ring and talk.
I think that's a great idea... But for Daniel??? I do not know. And I know enough to say that. I love him, I will, I love him even though I shouldn't and can't and he doesn't want it, but I do. I miss him though, I was telling Tanisha today that it ACHES, I mean, I ACHE when I think of how we were. Oh yeah, the way we were...damn Barbra Streisand. 
