  whoops...and if I would have just told him what was written down below, I would have been in a lot better place than last night! I decided to wait up for hubby...I honestly wanted to smooth things over...it is so hard to be without your husband during the week and only get to spend quality time together on the weekend...obviously I am the only one feeling this loneliness because he just doesn't put forth the effort...okay, that's not exactly fair, but the guy is so fucking melancholy about everything--it drives me crazy!!! I did ask if that is what the deal was...is it because we got into a groove and he figured he could lax on his responsibility and we would be okay???
He had nothing...nothing to say except I am ornary...what did he expect?!!! I get so tired of his overgeneralizations...all of sudden I am ALWAYS ornary and there has been NO change...hmmm, I said so basically you are calling yourself a liar...he didn't like that too much but I told him that is so contrary to what he has said in counseling and on our date that one of them had to be a lie! Anyway...it was bad, got worse, and still isn't resolved...so we'll see if he actually calls today...bastard. 
