  Isn't life strange? The past week has been a continuous cycle of stress...and, now, that it is all over, I just want to forget all the stress, find the good, and move on! We put Spike down. Please, be kind with the judgements. He was destroying the house and we just couldn't figure out a way to solve it. I miss him, he was my puppy and I love him so much.
At the same time, I couldn't argue with hubby about how much stress this was causing and how angry it was making him. Namely, our brand new carpet is now destroyed. I guess carpet is much more satisfactory to tear up than hardwood floors? He has not torn at flooring before. Okay, correction, he ripped up some vinyl when he was new but nothing since. So, he suffers from extreme nervousness.
When someone other than hubby, B, and I come into the house he freaks. He will run and hide under the bed if our room is open and bark his head off. Seriously. For three hours one time because I couldn't pull him out. Or, if I anticipate someone coming and close off the doors, I lead him back downstairs and he crawls into my lap while people try to let him sniff their hands. Anyway, I am trying to justify what we did, I guess.
We knew that because of his fear he would be so scared and people would have little patience so we decided to put him down than put him through that. I think it was the right thing to do although a few of my friends have voiced their adament disapproval. Ironically, anyone that knows Spike agreed with us, he wouldn't have made it if we sent him away. Regardless, I miss him very much. It is better this week...part of me has acknowledged he is gone so the constant thoughts are winding down. My inlaws...I don't even want to go into this.
I have spent the whole weekend arguing with hubby about it all and I'm tired of the control they have when we are trying not to let them have control. As I told hubby, I am done seeking them out, I am done begging for a relationship. They can live in TC with each other and live their twisted lives together. I will continue to follow through with my obligations as their daughter in law but no more than is necessary. The silver lining? The shower is over...now, I know I will probably have to go up there once the baby is born but after that...I don't see any reason to interact until we go to the races...potentially two and a half months of freedom!!!
THAT is something to look forward to! A plus side to this whole nightmare of a past week, I got a new car. The Barto-mobile has been retired and I miss it. However, there is nothing like the comfort of knowing when you turn that key, your car will respond appropriately without any screeching or squealing. We were looking at a new truck for hubby since I cannot drive his stick and that way, when my car did break down, we would be able to share a vehicle until it was fixed. Well, hubby decides since he is getting a new vehicle it must have all bells and whistles.
BUT it did not bother him that he wanted to buy a '97 Expedition...maybe I'm wrong but wouldn't it be beneficial to buy a younger truck with less miles and less features??? It won't mean a thing that your vehicle has heated seats if the stupid thing won't run! So, everytime we would go look, we would get mad at each other. Finally, I told him I was done looking. We could continue driving the same vehicles until one died and that would be the one we replaced. Now, don't get me wrong...hubby has been nagging me for two years to get a new car.
My car was paid for and I liked not having a car payment so I held off. He won. He suggested I look online for a car instead of a truck. I found a car in a different state that was extremely low mileage and a great deal. Plus, he took my car for a trade in. He is also a cop so, of course, for hubby that sealed the deal.
It has been strange getting used to the new car but I really like it! Other than that (! ), this week looks promising! B has an appointment with the etn dr today. I am very hopeful this is finally the right specialist to tell us what is going on and how we can help him...my health is haywire as expected. I am praying this is the right dose because I'm not exactly sure I can take going through all of this again in six weeks.
Did I mention my oldest sis is pregnant??? YIPPEE!!! I'm so excited for her...and, now, I am trying to figure out what to do...go to NY before baby is born, after, next year, both??? Decision! The baby is due at the end of November so maybe I should go at the end of the summer and then the beginning of next year. Plus, I am wondering if she will be coming home before then so we can throw her a shower! 
