  okay...I liked this, and I need a break from moving offices...so, I'm copying... I am not: packing my crap...I'm tired of it...packing an office you have been in for 3 years is NO FUN! I hurt: my thigh...big nasty bruise from walking into an end table...doh! I love: my boys...if it wasn't for them, I am not sure any of this would be worth it... I hate: liars... I fear: cancer... I forget: everything...but let's not dwell on it! I remember: when I was so stressed out in high school and college...what was I doing???
I miss college and the stupid fun Jen and I used to have...we were so dorky and immature but we laughed and that's all that mattered. I imagine: being on permanent vacation...soaking up rays on Lake Michigan in my cute little bungalow. I hope: to live a long healthy life. I crave: chocolate of course! I regret: the times when I wasn't a good friend... I care: too much about what other people think...I try so hard to disregard but I know those suckers sneak in... I always: psychoanalyze myself. I want: to pay off all debt and just live to live... I feel alone: after B goes to bed and before hubby gets home... I listen: too much...I need to talk more I hide: my emotions and fears I pretend: that I am happy all the time...I know, you would never guess it reading my blog...but seriously, I don't know how to act sad, mad, irritated...I jump right back into happy.
I drive: myself (and probably my hubby too! ) crazy! I sing: ALL the time...the worst part about being at work is not being able to sing with the tunes... I cry: mostly when I'm pissed... I destroy: myself...not as much anymore, but I'm still prone to mentally abusing myself...at least the physical abuse is done...progress I dance: not enough! And pretty badly! LOL I write: a lot...other than music it is my favorite release. I wake: hubby when he sleeps too long! haha I breathe: these damn chemicals at Pfizer...yuck! I play: music constantly... I venture: whenever I get the courage...I love to go explore new places but I think the paranoia from my mom has been passed down...I'm always looking for the scary guy about to kidnap me...
I find: laughter really is the best medicine...I love to laugh! I pray: God will keep my family safe and healthy I miss: playing the piano I kiss: my boys... I succeed: ??? I learn: more about myself everyday...okay, I really don't listen well enough for everyday, but every week.
I used to avoid myself and now I wonder why I didn't listen sooner... I feel: annoyed...I have water in my ear...I can't get it out and I'm scared my ear drum will burst again... I know: that I am strong enough I joke: terribly! I am the WORST person to tell a joke...a) I can't remember how the story gets to the punchline b)I'm laughing too hard because I know the joke and it makes me giggle...I try not to tell jokes!
I say: feed the American children...then you can worry about the ones that don't live in our own country I change: my home decor a lot I fail: at being the perfect person people want me to be. I dream: of being healthy, fit, and content with myself. I believe: I am a better person than I used to be I wonder: about many strange things...and I like to have answers so I usually make myself look foolish because of this weird curiosity of mine...
I worry: that my hubby will die and I will be without my best friend...I know, I shouldn't even think about it I wish: for lovely weather again. I fight: only when necessary...I hate conflict I need: much less than I am blessed with I am: who I am because of where I have been I: choose to be filled with joy! Current music: Evanescence Feeling MUCH better than yesterday...I just have these moments of dark where I allow all the demons knocking on my door to come into the light...bad idea. Poor, poor B...he took a nosedive right out of his loft last night...scared the bajeebees right out of me!
It was after midnight and I must have fallen asleep while waiting for hubby to come to bed...all of a sudden, BAM! and then he started to cry a little, I'm pretty sure he was still sleeping until I ran in there and grabbed him. Thankfully, his blanket came down with him and probably protected him from being beat up by anything in his way...tonight, I will be reorganizing his room to make a clear path if that should happen again...it is so weird because he has had this bed for over a year and has NEVER fallen out... 
