  My post on my PCOS board... Mandi~ Well, I can tell you why you wrote...it is exactly what I have been feeling...I was so sick this weekend...surprise, a period started on Thursday...but no period I have ever experienced before...I hate them. I used to be physically ill when I was a teenager with cramps, so I know what hideous cramps are. But this...not even my meds could subside them in the least. And, I would be feeling better, than get worse again.
I basically slept all weekend and am sitting here at work wondering how I'm going to make it through tonight with B... I look at my weight...and, yes, since having B I have gone down one size. ONE SIZE...I have been watching what I eat, started excercising and NOTHING is happening. I'm so disgusted. I hate looking the way I look, I hate feeling the way I feel and sometimes I wonder if I'm not losing weight because I'm too scared.
I can't get myself to accept this is it and I can't take not seeing anything move. I started crying to hubby today because I feel like shit...it makes me wonder if I wanted the Met to work so I made myself think I was feeling better. Right now, I feel so close to what I did last year this time. My body has started aching and stiffening and it scares me.
The only good thing I have is that my appointment with the endo is next Friday. I will be able to unload on him and see what he says. Plus, I haven't had my blood taken yet (doing it tomorrow) so maybe it will show if something is really going on to make my muscles so tight... anyway...thank you for your post...it really did help...and I'm trying not to lose hope. Most days, hope is all that keeps me looking to a better tomorrow. Take care~S god...I wish I could stop being a downer...I'm really tired of being "depressed".
I know I haven't hit bottom yet, but do I have to?? ? 
