  Sorry I didn't have time to actually write something of substance yesterday...however, I thought I should spend a little time working since that is what they pay me for... although, today, I get to be here for longer...so I can goof for longer!!! Okay...what has been making my brain do crunches...I talked to Mr X about three-four weeks ago...for a LONG time.
It was very nice actually...however, since then, I have an undying urge to call him again. I did call back once to let him know the (fake) reason for my original call was now void due to an unforeseen (also, fake! ) emergency...ah, revisiting the jr high days can be so freeing!... alas, X was not home and I was only able to communicate with the answering machine. I was hoping I would receive a return call just to say--hey, I really enjoyed talking with you...I've missed you and I wish you well... Now, I am holding onto the hope that I will receive a message for the dreaded "B" that is rapidly approaching... Time to psychoanalyze....I have come to the conclusion that I am mortified of commitment...rather humorous looking the commitment level in my life I know...
But I have a tendency to get myself WAY over my head (with commitments) and then start pushing them all away...so, is this another passive aggressive way to kill-off my current commitments? I mean, come on!!! I used to think the separation from Mr X was the one SANE thing I did in my life...and now, I keep wondering how to wiggle back into his... 
