  do you ever feel like you are two steps from being committed??? that's me...I always over-analyze myself, and, of course, it all takes place in my head...so, yeah, I think I'm nuts... anyway...do you know how many pregnant people I know??? I know a bunch...I also know a load of people buying new houses...but that is not what I'm talking about right now...my older sis, her sister in law, her friend, my friend T, my PCOS friend A, and now S...not to mention all of those I know that JUST had babies.
It is weird because I would have thought that I would have issues with it...not really...I don't want to say that I am above that because that is NOT what I mean...I just mean that I haven't allowed myself to think there is even a remote possibility so I have moved on to find other meaning in my life beyond having babies. I'm glad I feel this way...it isn't like me to be jealous of what other people have so it was a double whammy when I got all depressed AND was jealous...I just didn't like myself so much then because I felt I was just being bitch-y.
This weekend was nuts...seems to be the story of our life. I feel like we are trying to cram in everything before we go on our cruise! Friday, my parents had B overnight...hubby and I met his coworkers at Don Pablos for dinner and then went to Gary Fields Comedy Club. We had never been there before and it was HALARIOUS! I have not laughed that hard in a very long time...hubby was so nervous going into it because he thought I would not like his coworkers...I had met them at R's graduation party and they were so nice...but I think he was worried they would talk about work the entire time and I would feel left out. They did talk about work A LOT but it doesn't bother me...I am so used to listening to hubby's stories and not having a clear understanding of everything he is telling me.
Plus, R's wife, J, is so sweet...they both are just very nice people. We had a great time with them which was wonderful because since B and H's divorce we haven't really had a perfect match as couple friends... I take that back, we have T & J but they live in Indiana and we don't do things without the kids. Anyway, J said she will find the schedule and we can plan a next time...I think each side passed the "friends" interview...lol!
We went to the early show with R&J so we got home a little after 10pm. My sis has loaned us the Harry Potter movies so we decided to watch the first one. I fell asleep for about 1/2 an hour but we both really like it. Saturday we both slept in, got ready, and went tanning. The owner was there so we talked to him about the best way to get hubby tan in three weeks, not going everyday. He was really nice and gave us a great deal on a package and some new tan lotion. He talked to me about how it was going for me since I come everyday...I told him, for some reason, I still wasn't getting much color! That's when he sold me a different lotion that has accelerator in it and upgraded my bed. He says, you are going to feel it burn but you aren't REALLY burning... Well, he put me in the ultra-bed for 15 minutes...I was still getting pink at 10minutes in the regular bed! And, boy, he wasn't kidding! That shit made me hurt!!! It burned and was on the verge of hurting..it was definitely NOT comfortable!
Then, I got out and everywhere I had put the lotion on was bright cherry red...it looked like I had fried! The good news is, I did indeed get a lot of color...the bad news is, there are places that really did burn. Like the back of my arms, the top of my thighs, the sides of my calves...very weird but whatever...I didn't go back yesterday but I think I might be okay to go today... After tanning, we picked up B.
Then we headed to Cabela's. It took a little over two hours but it was such a beautiful afternoon. We spent three plus hours there and both hubby and B had a fabulous time...it was not as painful as I thought it would be but I definitely could have left at least an hour earlier! Sunday was just lazy...I got up and went grocery shopping...it took forever because I hadn't gone for a couple weeks. I have decided, I need to find a farmer's market. I spent the majority of the grocery money on produce, including the $6.50 I spent for a bag of cherries! Unbelievable! So, I'm thinking I need to find somewhere to get some of the fresh produce cheaper. Plus, it would probably taste better because it would be extra fresh! Anyway, we had a bbq for hubby for Father's day and that was it...I crashed on the couch after lunch. I was so tired...it is funny because I get irritated when I have to remind hubby that I can't go balls to the wall all the time and sometimes my body just crashes...but I forget too.
I slept for about three hours! Thankfully B wanted to watch a movie so he was content just laying on the other couch while I was dead to the world... Well...my boss is ooto this week so I guess that is why I felt the need to ramble so long. I don't have much to do and am DREADING this week...I want to work extra so I have overtime for extra cash for vacation but I don't know if I can convince myself to stay! This afternoon I have to leave a little early, I have my hearing test...the results should be interesting... 
