  I formally came out to my boss today. Not a bad thing, he pretty much knew. I just had to give him the details of this latest thing b/c I knew he'd appreciate them and then I would be sure that he had the story straight.
(heh heh, I said straight ) So, it's funny but a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, one I didn't even know was there. Of course now I am worried that he'll act funny. Probably not. Not like he doesn't act funny anyway... Oh, whatever. Let's see... EVERY little thing that happens to my body now scares me b/c of my potential disease--or syndrome--whatever. I will be a bit more relaxed when I have had the blood work and sonogram to verify that it's treatable and nothing more serious than what my doctor said.
BUT still...that's nothing to be sneezed at. The part about going to a dietician is daunting b/c I don't like dealing with weight and I am lazy and well, basically, I have a LOT of weight to lose and changes to make in my lifestyle (I hate that word). I just need somebody to kick me in the ass about it and keep on me on a regular basis. Okay, so now that I am officially not even somebody's "bitch on the side" (which is what I have taken to calling myself affectionately) it sucks to know that I am completely unattached--but not.
Yes, I have a very open marriage and can always count on Renee but...well, she even knows that she cannot give me the kind of relationship that I apparently want/need. It is frustrating. Very. Valentine's Day is on Saturday. I had big plans for something I was going to do for Renee but now, I don't know. I should probably just clean the house. That would be nicest of all...slacker that I am. What a stupid day, Valentine's Day. I think only a very small handfull of times have I actually spent a nice, romantic day (or portion of a day) with my Valentine. I always like doing things with my family... Speaking of my family, I think I might just go back home if I don't get into graduate school.
Honestly, I would have to give up dating as I am intimidated by the largeness of where I would thus live. Finding gay people would intimidate me... Okay, it's snowing. I won't be home for FOUR more HOURS and I am cranky, tired, hot, and .... grrrr... 
