  i am so tired. this weekend was very nice. it is alwasy nice to return home. i spent a little too long in the sun, though and now i am paying the price. nicole too. we got cooked. it was nice though to see the fam. we will return in a couple of weeks to see her family.
i met with floyd on sunday morning and we had a very productive conversation. i know that i am hearing a lot of people telling me to wait on God, but i am so afraid of getting complacent, and i want to go now. i need to leark self-control. that is what a lot of last week's Bible study was about. i got to hear willy preach this weekend. that was a treat as usual. the man speaks with great authority and he carries truth. i love him as a pastor and i look forward to meeting with him in a couple of weeks.i suppose i will start seminary classes this fall. don't know how i will pay for them. nicole needs to go to school and she has been waiting longer than me. she is so amazing and wonderful. her heart is just so huge and i love her very deeply. i am leary about what to with my job now.
taht will pan out in God's time i know. there are a couple of entries in my written journal from the weekend, so i didn't post here. i need prayer. i need lots of it. i am going to have to remain strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. God has been eternally good to me and i will worship him. thank you Lord for all you have done. give me an unrelenting burden and push me forward on toward the goal. thank you for being so good God! 
