  I feel so unmotivated to blog lately. I'm having such an awful time...my life sucks nowadays. No sign of Jan nor his pics. He doesn't sms, except couple of days ago. I didn't sms him at all except to reply at his msg. I was thinking that if he can go on with life not smsing me for a month then I guess that's about it. He does not love me. Coz how can it be love if he doesn't miss u at all? Am I making sense here? I'm not really at my best blogging mood so I'm just putting down everything here without thinking about it first or organizing my thoughts.
I'm just really depressed. :( If everything with Jan is okay, it seems that other aspects of my life seems to fall into place. I dunno. I'm really sad. :(( I also haven't spoken to Mel for a week. Why should I? After all, didn't she said that will be her last sms and call? She was really acting like a bitch the night my friends and I went out. I mean, didn't she do the same thing when she went out with her stupid friends?
Besides, who gave her the right to boss me around? Just because I boss her around doesn't mean she can do the same with me. Anyways, I'm just not in the mood. I hope this week is no indication of how my weekend would fair. Happy weekend. Jan please call! Show me some signs!!! ! 
