  love hurts....again I just had a talk with Jan, over the phone. Actually, I called him up last night right after I sent him an sms and told him that I'm not sure whether to send an sms or not coz I'm scared of not getting any reply. But, he did replied. I was really praying for it. So, I called him up and he's at work kinda busy but we still get to talk for a few minutes. I told him him to just come online so we can chat and he said "he'll see". But I'm not taking any "we'll see" or "I'll try" from now on so I said he should come online.
He did. But the problem is my messenger is messing up. I don't know why these things happen at the wrong moment! Sometimes it makes me think that it's a sign from God or something. I hope I'm wrong though. Back to what I was saying, I had a talk with him coz he smsed me if I'm online and that means I'm not getting any msgs. I told him to wait till I restart my pc and log back in. He did. Anyways, it didn't work and we're having those word war again and can't stand ending that way.
So, I called him up and we had a talk. Here goes... It was a pretty much good conversation although it's quite heartbreaking too. He told me he's not very serious with me and asked me why I have to take everything so seriously. SERIOUS is the word I guess. I shouldn't take it too seriously, lest I'll hurt myself more. I told him how come he didn't tell me he feels this way. He should have told me about it before so I could have prevented myself from getting too attached.
He said he fell inlove with me too. Whatever! I don't know how this could have happened. I feel like crying...I actually am but I'm keeping it from falling or else I won't be able to stop. 
