  I haven't heard from Janu and it's the 7th day from the time we last talked. How can someone "ignore" you that long, esp. if he tells you that he loves you? Is it just the way men are? Maybe not. Whatever it is, I'm not making a move.
I have tried to focus on other things, keeping myself busy and meeting friends. I'm actually trying to have a life! If he doesn't come around then maybe he's not the guy for me. It sounds easy but it hurts. But, what can I do? I can't force someone to love me.
I'll just have to accept that it's the reality. C'est la vie! Maybe someone "better" who will truly sincerely love me to will come around. But, one thing I would absolutely wanna know is WHY. Oh well, it ain't over til its over. :) I'm actually dying to move to the other department and meet knew people, do new things and work in a new place.
I hope I can finish everything at my present work so I can move up there without any "pending" work. I hate having pending work but it seems thats what my boss is actually trying to do! He gave all these "to do" lists and yet he keeps on interrupting me to do something else, adding to my workload! Now, I'm coing to work on Saturdays (for free! ) just to finish all those in the list! There's one thing about my next job though.
The salary I will get is 100+% more than my current salary and I'm happy about it. But, I feel a little guilty about earning so much while the rest of the populace who are working harder than me are just getting less than my current salary, not to mention my sister! I mean she has to work today, on a Saturday, and woke up at 4 AM, commute to work (which is farther than mine) and earn so little. Then her work is absolutely more difficult than mine. I feel like asking her to rent a place near her work and shoulder it myself. I'll prolly do that, if my parents would agree coz they didn't like her living outside our home!
Then there's this other guy I saw on the street who's cleaning somebody else's shoes for money that isn't enough for one decent meal! Maybe I should try to get over this guilt. It's not good to get depressed and oh-so-guilty about something I didn't have any control over. On a lighter note, I definitely need to lose weight (prolly 10 lbs! ) and eat less from now on! All my clothes are getting tight and there's not much I can wear anymore without getting some bulges here and there!
And I don't want my face to look so round when they finally take my ID picture! All round, all face! lol 
