  I think I'm back in the dating deal....I'm not sure that I want to though. I went out with Carl yesterday and it was the longest date I've ever had. I can't believe we hung out for eleven hours!! When he called me on Sat. to ask me to the movies, he said he would call me on Sun. around noon. I figured that he would call around that time and see where and when we would meet. To my surprise he called right on time except he was already on his way here!! I had just gotten out of the shower, so when he came I still had to dry my hair and stuff so he had to wait for me.
Funny how at the end of the night he hugged me, smelled my hair and told me that it had been worth the wait. We went to see "Bruce Almighty" and it was really fun. Except for this one scene when his girlfriend is crying and praying to God to make her not love him anymore because she's too weak and it hurts to love him. I have to say that it hit a nerve. The movie was cool and then meeting his friends was awesome. Jason and his fiance are cool. Alex was quiet and reserved but equally cool. (The pot calling the kettle black! ) They seem like a really nice balanced group of people. We talked from serious stuff like the death penalty to goofy stupid stuff like this cartoon called "Family Guy", to even sex laws in Alabama and California. They are very intelligent people, yet they can act goofy and have fun. Jason was actually the first person I've heard saying that Hitler was a genius. It's something that I've thought about, yet felt stupid for thinking it. When he said that he almost got kicked out of school for saying that, I told him that I thought the same thing because you have to be a genius to be able to get thousands of people to think like you do.
Genius doesn't necessarily mean being good, you can use that either way. He obviously didn't use it right, but the man was a genius and more than anything a great orator. Jason said that's exactly what he had told the teacher and they called him a racist. I bet if I would have told them, then they would have no argument, cause I'm a minority....even though in California seems to be the majority.....ironic.
So after hanging out with his friends and their cat, we came back home and just when I thought it would be "Good night. I had a great time. Thank you".....we still talked some more. Carl informed me that his friends must really like me since during the evening they invited me to three things that they're planning in the near future. They invited me to see "The Producers", "Freddy vs Jason", and "Finding Nemo". I think that's a good balanced summer. :) I was scared of the end of the date and certain expectations that he might have, but fortunately I've been completely honest.
He knows the whole Robert deal and he seems to be quite understandable about it. In fact he gave me some new insight into it. He basically thinks that Robert is weak to admit what he's feeling, so he wants to keep me as a back up. The question is whether I'm going to let myself be that back up. For someone to have broken up with a girl in Nov. 2001...come August 2002 and say "Give me time". He's not sure of what he wants and now all he's doing is letting the Long Beach Police make his decision for him. The sad part is that given the option, I probably would be that back up girl in a second. I told Carl about the "Rosie's house" incident, the "Driving lessons" incident, and the "A Beautiful Mind" incident.
He told me "See, that's why I don't look at my ex in the eyes when I have to talk to her or get anywhere near her. Because I love her, therefore I know something will happen if I look her in the eyes, and because I'm weak...I just don't put myself in that situation. " However, Robert and I were in that situation and at this point something's gotta give. It was really nice hanging out with him.
Intellectually, we get along great; but my feelings are a mess. It was weird to be shaking a little when he was hugging me and smelling my hair, but I think I was just nervous about being close to him and the probability of a goodnight kiss. But he was a gentleman and didn't try. No matter what happens, I hope I gain a good friend from this. He's honest, funny, and intelligent...what else could I ask from a friend?.....and he's got friends who can get him tickets for the House of Blues if Norah Jones decides to stop by there at some point during this tour.....FYI: that last Norah Jones comment was just my ego talking...even without the connections he's still a pretty cool guy. 
