  he plays weird music on the stereo. some jiggy ba-doo-dah bullshit from the seventies. at least it sounds like the seventies anyway. we're going on a trip...an 'adult trip' as jessica puts it. the room is strangely cold in here, yet i am warm. how do i do that?
manage to feel warm and cold at the same time? we made love on the couch last night. suddenly aroused from watching law and order, don't ask me why. i stroked his manlyhood and rubbed it against my breasts. feeling. felt him deep inside me and moaned.
soaked in all that was us as he whispered i love you, i love you. harder, softer, faster, slower...now, please, now. right. there. we're going for a trip together in two weeks. it's our first racheal and ryan holiday together.
yum. love must be this...listening to avenue q together and laughing our asses off. calling to say i love you. picking up, dropping off, and picking up again. love must be laughing and crying in bed together, love must be waking up to the one you love. or being jolted from an awful screaming nightmare and feeling safe secure arms around to soothe you.
love must be making mash potatoes and meatloaf turkey, grocery shopping, planning a life together. love must be waiting at the doctors office with nerves and more nerves and having someone share it with you. love must be about buying your first set of plates and owning a home together. love must be about giving and taking. sharing. learning.
forgiving. yes, love must be most of all be about forgiving. for the little things, the big things and the smaller ones too. love must be about knowing when you are wrong and when you are absolutely damn right but able to take the fall anyway. love is about patience. love is about experience.
love is this. all that i know. glass cases of mixed sand and warming together on the beach. love is a warm cup of coffee in the morning with bagels and someone to share it with. is this love? is this right?
does anything that i say make sense at all? love is about dating your best friend. good or bad. naughty or nice. stupid or silly. love is about wanting to stay forever.
and ever. and ever. 
