  I love the fall I have my windows open.  I love the air And then I have Radiohead playing as well.  � Lucky�  it's so mellow and kind of Nirvana sounding.  and it always puts me in a mood I can't explain.
 it's so like.  depressed electricity running through me.  like when you slip in socked feet and the sensation runs up your body.  kind of a modulated version of that.  constant.  dark.
 it's wonderful.  smoke from houses burning wood.  It reminds you of football nights in high school.  when the biggest competition was in the stands.  Who you would stand with,  who you were next to,
 who you wanted to go to the party with you when the game was over.  Hot Chocolate.  The biggest fights happen in this weather,  love falls to the ground to grow in weather like this.  You buy books and make soup and do things at home without feeling like your missing something more important.  You put on that sweater that you have been thinking about all summer.
 the one you wish you could wear when it's ninety out because of how it snugs you on your skin.  You can wear it now,  and you take it out of your chest and smell the cedar on it.  And then when it's the next day you run out to get a pumpkin on a road called River Road that you can actually see the river on.  You go to an old farmer's market where they have tons of pumpkins.  and if you don't look across the river to Cincinnati and it's ugliness and you pretend it's gone you almost feel free from the trains,
 airplanes,  and drudgery that can mark an ugly fall.  Instead you argue with your significant other or mother or father about what pumpkin to pick.  and argue about impossibly insane things we argue about when we are at peace,  like the right shape and how much guts we are going to have to pull out.  and we like to talk in terms of gutting.
 as if we're butchers grading cattle.  and you marvel at how you use to head to the biggest pumpkin when you were young.  instinctively you would wrap your cold hands around the biggest one and try to lift it.  and drop to the ground with a thud.  They would never let you get the largest pumpkin.  you got a medium one.
 a practical one.  like the one you're going to get now.  and then go home with it.  Candles.  you always need candles.  and then home with it.
 I love fall.
